nineteen and jaded.

I'm having a mid life crisis at age 19, which would make it a late adolescent crisis....whatever the case might be, im loosing it. Sense of style and all. I feel like a naked kitten, shaven of its dignity. Where do i stand? Nowhere. I'm witnessing myself become overly confident and at the same time highly self conscious. I should shut myself in my nerd haven, listen to joy division(my current obsession), sink deep into my books and shut out the oblivious world, or i can just go to trader joes and get some food to devour....